Well hello you. I haven’t written my usual weight loss journey post on a Sunday for a month now and I thought I’d sit down and explain why. If you’re still around that is.

 

It boils down to a few things but predominantly, I got bored writing the same thing every week. And I think you may have got bored too … and I don’t blame you. I wasn’t losing a great deal of weight, I was yo-yo’ing a lot and as much as I was making great strides at the gym, which perhaps is one reason why I wasn’t losing much weight, I just couldn’t/can’t seem to shift these last few stones.

 

I’m stuck, and it’s frustrating as hell. I’ve fallen back into some bad habits, mainly eat shitty food at night in bed. It’s always been a comfort thing but I’m unsure why I’m turning to food again. I’ve worked through some issues with my therapist and, as I mentioned in another post, I’ve decided to stop therapy for the time being because life is good. My head feels quite clear and I’m happy for the most part, but there are a couple of things in life that are making me feel a little unsettled, and I tend to turn to food to ‘calm down’ those feelings.

 

Are you with me so far? So firstly, my love life. I don’t really have one per se, although I’ve had some really lovely dates in the last few weeks, but I’m still hoping that one of them will turn into something more, but they haven’t so far. And you know what? That’s actually OK because being single is no bad thing, as much as society/the media would have us believe. I think that as long as you are happy within yourself, you don’t need to be in a relationship. It’s an occasional ‘want’ for me, never a ‘need.’ But when I’m feeling low, I do tend to wonder why no-one wants to be in a relationship with me. I doubt myself sometimes, I’m only human, and I have to give myself a metaphorical slap round the face when I feel like that because I know I’m a good person that has a lot to offer … I just clearly haven’t met the right person.

 

And secondly, money. Or rather lack thereof. I love being self-employed, I really do. I can’t begin to tell you how liberating it is working in your knickers every day (poor postman) but scrabbling around for pennies at the end of every month (literally) is exhausting. Like really draining … that constant worry, and so again, I turn to food. The one constant in my life.

 

I thought I’d kicked these bad habits and so I’m a little disappointed in myself if I’m honest. The one good thing is that I’ve only put a couple of pounds on – I weighed myself at the doctors this week, the first time in four weeks. So my weight loss is 3 stones and 12lbs. But I definitely haven’t missed the weekly weigh-in. I haven’t been to the gym for two weeks because I picked up a shoulder injury that was really debilitating … and buggering off to the seaside with a new friend probably didn’t do it any favours (but it was oh-so-much fun!) So thinking about it, I’m missing those endorphins I usually get from weight training. Christ, I really need to go back ASAP.

 

I’m waffling. I think I just thought that you wouldn’t want to hear me moan about my problems, and the reasons why I’m not losing weight right now. But it’s important for me to document my thoughts about this because we all know how easy it is to completely fall off the wagon. But one thing I AM doing well, that I’m hoping will just stand me in good stead when it comes to life in general, is focusing on doing things that make me happy. Like having my hair cut.

 

OK OK … just slightly trimmed, but still …

 

red hair

 

Going to the seaside …

 

whitstable beach

 

And blouse shopping. Don’t you just love blouse shopping …

 

 

My weight is going to be a lifelong issue for me. I’d love to be that person who never has to worry or even think about food, but I’m not. I can look at a piece of lettuce and put a stone on … but equally, I’ve been very honest about the times when I’ve not done what I needed to do to shift this weight. And I really do need to lose these last few stones. So tomorrow is a new day (obviously) and I’m hoping that I can sort of … ‘re-set’. Yes, Re-set Monday. Fingers crossed I can kickstart this weight loss again but in the meantime, I do hope you’ll stick around.

 

weight loss before after

 

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  1. I absolutely love following your weight loss journey as not only do I find it really bloody inspiring that you’ve been so driven and hit amazing targets, but a lot of what you say rings very true for me. Especially the emotional eating triggers and exploring the reasons for behind why I do it. You always right about it in such a balanced way, it’s not all about the achievements and when things are going well.

    1. Thank you Chloe, that’s so kind of you to say. I never really stop to think that people can understand where I’m coming from, I just ramble a lot! But it’s good to know that it resonates, that people ‘get’ how I feel and even better, it’s great to know I’m not alone x

  2. I think you look fantastic, but I guess people can tell you that all they want, you have to feel it yourself, don’t you? I’ve actually been to an information evening for gastric sleeve surgery as I’m so frustrated with my weight. I can’t really exercise due to previous injuries and I’m horrible at dieting x

    1. Thanks Carolin and you’re right. I’m just SO aware that I still have a huge amount of weight to lose and it feels like I’ve been trying to lose weight all my life. Good luck with your gastric sleeve decision, I’d be really interested to hear if you decide to go ahead. x

  3. Hi Kate. I wonder if you remember me! I messaged u a while ago and said that I too had done brilliantly with sw initially I lost 6 stone and then it just stopped coming off. I maintained for about a year and then suddenly I started to fancy those “naughty” foods more and more. I have no idea what went “wrong”. Loads of excuses but no REAL ones. Losing that much weight made me feel fabulous, happy, confident, younger, attractive etc. I have carried on with my exercise – gym class twice a week, bike ride now and then and started couch to 5k. The weight started to go on – horror – and I have gained three stone of the six. I am determined to get this weight off again. I want to feel how I felt then rather than FAILED AGAIN. So I can only suggest to you that you give yourself a SHORT break from your eating plan and enjoy your comfort food whatever it may be and then get back on track and back on your plan. You will feel so crap if u let go of what you have achieved. You look fantastic. Yes exercise is great but it will not stop you gaining wait. My gym instructor was so pleased when I started my couch to 5k but warned me not to think I could eat more because of it. She advised me to drink more water instead! Keep going – it may have to be for life (mine will be) but life is so much better if u are in control. Excuse the blurb – I know u know it all anyway but take it from me – three stone is so much more to lose again second time around!!

    1. Janet, of course I remember you – you have done so amazingly well, I don’t really ‘know’ you, but I’m still very proud of you. I know how hard losing weight is and to lose 6 stones is incredible. Putting 3 stones on is easily done, it would take a matter of weeks. I can see what that slippery slope is like, but I have gone back to the gym this week (in my defence I was injured for 2 weeks) and feel so much better already. I’ve been concentrating on my mental health and sometimes that’s meant taking my foot off the weight loss pedal. But actually, you’re so right … I feel so much better when I’m losing weight, exercising and eating healthily, so I need to keep on top of it before I put it all back on. I won’t though, I promise! x

      1. Great to hear u are ON IT! Well done you! You are a glamorous dude now! It is so worth it and so are u! Xx

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