Time for this week’s healthy lifestyle update and It’s been a frustrating week. Frustrating and incredibly difficult. You know I hurt my back last week by doing absolutely nothing (although in hindsight, I’m sure it was a combination of things that had been happening in my body in the previous weeks – dodgy knee, dodgy foot, dodgy … everything)? Well it got slightly better on the Sunday … then got a lot worse. Bloody typical right? I was actually on my way to the gym on Monday when I bent down to pick up my bag, only for a different part of my back to seize up.
I’ll cut a very long, boring and painful story short – I’ve been laid up in bed pretty much all week. It didn’t improve at all and everything I did caused me a lot of pain. Of course, I’ve still had to parent, so washing, cooking, etc. still has to be done, but it’s just been pretty miserable. I’VE been pretty miserable. And slightly high on Co-codamal.
It’s meant no gym at all week – in fact, the most exercise I’ve done is the 5 metre belly crawl to the toilet, and an OAP-like stroll around Tescos.
Aaaaaaanyway … I finally went to see the Doctor on Friday (I don’t do Doctors, so to speak), and she gave me ALL the drugs. In fact, I had to turn down a stronger painkiller because Co-codamol spaces me out as it is. So I got some Diazepem and Naproxen, an anti-inflammatory. Which was nice. VERY nice. And I’m back to some semblance of normality.
But here’s the thing. It’s really knocked my confidence. I was, and am, well aware that I’m a woman in her 40s, overweight, and have only really just begun this new healthy lifestyle regime, but I was feeling so positive. So strong. And now? Now I feel every year of my age. I’ve been reminded that I’m not invincible, that I need to take more care of my body – pushing/pulling weights isn’t enough, and yeah, I’m not 18 anymore. More’s the pity.
I could do one of two things here, and trust me, I’ve thought about this a lot from my sickbed. I could knock it all on the head and stick to the occasional stroll (around Tescos), safe in the knowledge I’m unlikely to injure myself again. Or, I could just carry on from where I left off. Slowly, but not lose sight of what my goals were.
I’ve chosen the latter. And with that in mind, I went to the gym today just to test out where my body is at. I had no intention of doing any weights, but I went for a 25 minute walk on the treadmill (after walking to the gym), on a low incline, at a 5.5 speed … and it felt good. In a “Oooh, that feels slightly twingey, let’s slow it down” type way. I listened to my body, did a slow, gentle stretch after the walk, and walked home. I’ll go again tomorrow and see how I feel.
I can’t give up now. No, I’m not nearly as young as I once was, or as young as I’d like to be, but I just have to work with what I’ve got.
My food has been on point all week – until Saturday/cheat day that is. I’ve made a conscious effort to cook fresh food every night, including this delicious prawn, avocado and egg salad, and I’ve stuck to 1700 calories or less every day. In fact, I weighed myself at the Doctors, and it had me as 7lbs lighter than at home! But then that just confused me because what is the right weight? And then I weighed myself at the gym this morning, two days after the Doctors, and I’ve put that 7lbs back on! So .. WTF? THIS is why it’s important not to weigh yourself all the time! I’m confused and annoyed now, and have no idea what I weigh. I do wonder about my scales at home so I’m going to stick to weighing myself at the gym – maybe once a week for my purposes, and once a month for the blog.
Prawn, egg, avocado salad (so good to be ‘allowed’ avocado again.)
Mini eggs within my calorie allowance – about 400 for the bag.
Lighter Halloumi from Tescos – 30% less fat – 253 calories for just under half a packet. Served with cherry tomatoes, a drizzle of balsamic vinegar on a slice of wholemeal toast, no butter.
Turkey meatballs, instead of beef.
Southern Fried chicken breast – baked with salad and potatoes. Chicken circa 250 calories.
Slimming World Curry – I used chicken this time instead of beef.
Cinema snack of Go Ahead Yogurt Slice – 73 calories per slice, with a bag of apple and grapes.
See above. I honestly don’t know what to tell you. Body measurements are the same and I’m carrying extra water after eating crap yesterday. I’m all for a cheat meal/day but I always feel rubbish afterwards, so I don’t know why I bother. But now I’m back to the gym, albeit at not the same level as I was before, and I know that things will level off and the weight will come off again. I just need to keep on doing what I’m doing, regardless of the obstacles thrown in my way.
It’s scary posting photos of me in my underwear or bikinis, especially after the week I’ve had being absolutely battered by comments on dating sites, so please be kind, but it’s important for me to do it, especially when I’m feeling a little down about everything. I can see my hips are smaller, my stomach flatter (yes, it’s all relative because I’m still big), but what I see is progress – and that’s all I need right now.
Listening to my Thinking Slimming Slimpod every night is still a big part of my success (success – a subjective word, but my slow but steady success) and if you want to learn more, CLICK HERE.