This week seems to have passed in a bit of a blur. I’m really cracking on with my new job (not sure cracking on is a particularly professional phrase) but suffice to say, it’s going well. My boss is happy with me, so that’s the main thing, and it fits in so well with my lifestyle, I couldn’t be any happier right now.
Talking of lifestyle, do you remember last week I spoke about how I had tentatively started to try and run/fast walk and managed 17 miles? Yeah… that didn’t happen this week. In my defence m’lud, I feel a lot of demands on my time at the moment. The new job aside, I am currently teaching my eldest son to drive and, of course, and understandably, he wants to go out in the car every day. I try my best to see Dad as much as I can, but even when I manage three or four times a week, like this week, it never feels enough. He just wants company as much as anything else and I find it quite hard when he is so unwell. Obviously, not as hard as he finds it, but you know what I mean. The whole situation is very stressful. And then there is chauffeuring work for my best friend who’s just had an operation, blogging work, being a single parent, housework, cooking … the usual. After all that, if I’m honest, I just didn’t have the impetus to go out running. The thought was there, but that’s all it was this week.
And I should say I’m not a woe is me type person, and life (on the whole) is great, but I just need to get that stuff of my chest sometimes.
Having said that all of that, I finally went out for a bike ride today with Dexter, the first time in at least six months, so that was a positive. We also played crazy golf this afternoon, whereas perhaps I might have usually just chilled at home. Oh and I cut both (mahoosive) lawns this weekend, so I haven’t exactly been idle.
I don’t mean to justify myself, but I think that’s just a bad habit I’m afraid, because of course, I don’t have to justify myself to anybody – I suppose I’m just a bit disappointed that I can’t be superwoman and do absolutely everything. Something has to give. And I would rather it was running, than me.
Food wise, I still made good choices this week. I had Nando’s for lunch with my eldest on Thursday to celebrate him passing his theory test (yay!), but just had a green salad with chicken and Haloumi. There was a visit to KFC at some point during the week, after parents evening I think, and I chose a 10/12 syn rice box. And if you haven’t had one, they’re ruddy lovely. I think I may have gone up to 20 syns on a couple of occasions this week but I’ve made peace with that! (The Maltesers were lovely.) Oh and I also made Slimming World Beef Curry again … except with chicken! A lot cheaper and just as delicious.
I haven’t felt nearly as bloated this week as I did last week and I put that down to doing a lot less exercise. I had no idea what the scales were going to show because the food was pretty much the same but I just felt like I had lost the water my body had retained last week. So I have a quandary … but first, let me tell you what the scales said.
I lost 2lbs! During the week, I felt like I’d lost weight, but because I’ve been yo-yo’ing so much over the past month, it’s nice to lose more than a pound and get under the weight that I always seem to stick at – so now I’m a pound under that, and 2lbs away from the next stone bracket.
Which brings me back to the quandary. It’s clear that exercising makes me retain water and therefore put weight on, and I’m 99% sure that if I could get past those first few weeks, my body would adjust, and I would start losing weight again. But it’s really important for me at the moment to be consistent with my weight loss, from a psychological aspect. I need to get past the goals like above, getting into the next stone bracket etc, because these are things I haven’t done in years. I don’t think I’m ready to risk that by exercising heavily and keeping the weight on, albeit temporarily.
Does that sound weird to you? I’m not saying I’m not going to do any exercise at all, I just mean nothing intense, because I didn’t like how I felt last week.
So I think, at the moment, I’m going to put hard-core (for me anyway) running/fast walking on hold, at least until I lose a bit more weight. I have so much more energy these days and, like this weekend, need to continue getting off the sofa. At least the bike has been dusted off now, so let’s hope I make more use of that this week.
Here’s to another fulfilling, but hopefully slightly less stressful week! And don’t forget you can follow me on Facebook, Twitter and Instagram.